And so for the past year, I have done everything I could to avoid getting back up on the horse. I am great at coming up with all types of excuses....usually because there was some work that needed to get done....all the while just avoiding the idea (and never really fooling myself).
For the past couple of weeks, I have been working on ground driving Moonbeam to get my confidence back and to work on his "brakes". Because he is basically a driving horse, I have traded in the snaffle bit for a little harsher driving bit (still a kind bit, but more control). This has made a world of difference and has boosted my confidence.
So, today, with Hubbs in tow, I walked Moonbeam up to our arena and climbed back in the saddle. We did a few circles and worked on stops and starts, dismounted, remounted, repeated the circles and quit. That was enough for the first day. We ended on a positive note and my self confidence was boosted enormously. I still am not ready for a solo ride and will drag Hubbs with me until I am comfortable. But these baby steps are enormous gains for me.
It is all about conquering fears.....and another item on my "bucket list". I am not about to leave this world with an unchecked fear haunting me. Besides that, my horse needs to work. Hopefully, together we can gain confidence in each other. Hopefully, today is the beginning of a new chapter in our relationship.