Yesterday afternoon was beautiful....clear blue skies, low 60's, cool breeze....perfect for a ride. I decided early in the day that I would make riding Moonbeam my goal for the day. This might seem like no big deal to many of you. But to me....huge goal. I have been avoiding getting back on Moonbeam since the last time I was tossed. About a year ago, I was riding him, when my friend's carriage and horse suddenly appeared out of the woods. Moonbeam freaked out and started to buck. I rode the buck for what seemed like an eternity...but eventually ended up on the ground. No big deal, no breaks, just a few bruises....but on top of the fractured pelvis and ribs that I had suffered the prior year (different horse)....it was enough to scare the heck out of me.
And so for the past year, I have done everything I could to avoid getting back up on the horse. I am great at coming up with all types of excuses....usually because there was some work that needed to get done....all the while just avoiding the idea (and never really fooling myself).
For the past couple of weeks, I have been working on ground driving Moonbeam to get my confidence back and to work on his "brakes". Because he is basically a driving horse, I have traded in the snaffle bit for a little harsher driving bit (still a kind bit, but more control). This has made a world of difference and has boosted my confidence.
So, today, with Hubbs in tow, I walked Moonbeam up to our arena and climbed back in the saddle. We did a few circles and worked on stops and starts, dismounted, remounted, repeated the circles and quit. That was enough for the first day. We ended on a positive note and my self confidence was boosted enormously. I still am not ready for a solo ride and will drag Hubbs with me until I am comfortable. But these baby steps are enormous gains for me.
It is all about conquering fears.....and another item on my "bucket list". I am not about to leave this world with an unchecked fear haunting me. Besides that, my horse needs to work. Hopefully, together we can gain confidence in each other. Hopefully, today is the beginning of a new chapter in our relationship.
Comments
Judi B.
In any case Bev..way to go..good for you. Stay in the riding area for awhile. With the deer on the move maybe that is the place to be for awhile never mind horse visitors. With the injuries you had no wonder you have needed time.
Loved the wagon in your last post. The yard and house look great..what a lot of work and all worth it. Bet your loving every minute of your new home.
Judi B.
Seems that age and pain from the falls can lead us into fear.
Just keep telling yourself that "the spirit of fear is not from God". This affirmation should help you each time you go to Moonbeam.
Oh...and thanks a bunch for stopping by to visit me!
Have a great day,
Hugs to you,
Steph
Hugs,
Maryjane
That's no baby step...gettin on that big ole horse without brakes!!!!
Ruth